The following is an excerpt from my diary entries
She has such a beautiful mind. The kind that sparked my dreams. The kind that inspired my mind in the way only the passionate at heart could imagine.
There was someone i knew , a long time ago. I was so deeply in love with her, i couldn't think straight. The saddest thing was, i think she felt the same way.
It was all easy in the beginning. All we had to do was laugh at the same things and infatuation took care of the rest. Or was it love?
Probably. I had never felt so connected to another person. She once said that what i was doesn't matter because i was perfect for her. How glad she was to have met me. We were not sure of what we felt but it was good. We should have held on tight, to that uncertainty.
There is never one particular reason why two people are pulled apart. More than an year later, i have stopped looking for answers. I know better now. That love is not a guarantee. Like she always said. It is not enough. Not when you have rest of the world to contend with.
Loving her taught me something about myself. Something that i hoped she learnt too. That loving is never in vain. Even the momentary happiness it gave me has kept me alive and hoping for more.
Even though I'm not who i was then and maybe she's still just someone trapped in my memories. I somehow can't tell the difference between what was and what is. I just know that beneath everything she left behind, i found a dark paradise, where we were one.
Something's never change. Like that feeling you get when you haven't seen someone for sometime.
That feeling of two people starting off right where they left off. And then, somethings do change, like two people growing further apart, but also remembering the little snippets and things, the little similarities that string them together, as if nothing ever happened and nothing ever drifted them apart.
Logic tells me I shouldn't but when has logic prevailed?
She has such a beautiful mind. The kind that sparked my dreams. The kind that inspired my mind in the way only the passionate at heart could imagine.
There was someone i knew , a long time ago. I was so deeply in love with her, i couldn't think straight. The saddest thing was, i think she felt the same way.
It was all easy in the beginning. All we had to do was laugh at the same things and infatuation took care of the rest. Or was it love?
Probably. I had never felt so connected to another person. She once said that what i was doesn't matter because i was perfect for her. How glad she was to have met me. We were not sure of what we felt but it was good. We should have held on tight, to that uncertainty.
There is never one particular reason why two people are pulled apart. More than an year later, i have stopped looking for answers. I know better now. That love is not a guarantee. Like she always said. It is not enough. Not when you have rest of the world to contend with.
Loving her taught me something about myself. Something that i hoped she learnt too. That loving is never in vain. Even the momentary happiness it gave me has kept me alive and hoping for more.
Even though I'm not who i was then and maybe she's still just someone trapped in my memories. I somehow can't tell the difference between what was and what is. I just know that beneath everything she left behind, i found a dark paradise, where we were one.
Something's never change. Like that feeling you get when you haven't seen someone for sometime.
That feeling of two people starting off right where they left off. And then, somethings do change, like two people growing further apart, but also remembering the little snippets and things, the little similarities that string them together, as if nothing ever happened and nothing ever drifted them apart.
Logic tells me I shouldn't but when has logic prevailed?